PURE EXHAUSTION

I don't think I realized how exhausted I really was until I was waiting for a load of laundry to be done in the dryer this afternoon. I sat down in the chair in my bedroom and 45 minutes later Paislee woke me up. My life has been in pure go mode sense the phone rang last Tuesday night. The thought of stopping to sit down never crossed my mind. I had to keep moving at all times. I have 5 posts with just titles because events are happening and I want to post about them but yet taking the time to do so just hasn't happened. I think if I stopped I would have to deal with the loss and right now I am just not ready to do that. I find myself taking a different path as I drive so I don't have to pass places that make this so real. Some how if I don't think about it, it's not real. These last 10 days never really happened. Yet some how I get little reminders slip in my thoughts and I have to face reality. Reality hurts!