CHRISTMAS EVE

Christmas Eve is always a night I look forward to as the holidays get close. We usually start the night out by having dinner with my family. We then pick Jordan's family up and head down town to hand out socks, beenies, jackets and gloves to the homeless. Once that is completed we go back to my parents house to open up our 12th and final presents from the 12 Days of Christmas, which of course are our Christmas pajamas. We have done the same thing every year for a while now and I am so sad to say this year is going to be different. With me now on bed rest I still thought I would go and just do a lot of sitting everywhere I went, but I had a little scare yesterday and I decided it just wasn't worth it. I will be staying home this year for Christmas Eve. This does break my heart but at the same time I know that having a baby 7 weeks early would be harder than missing Christmas Eve. Having this baby inside of me has been a challenge from the moment we decided to have another child. I believe this is Heavenly Fathers way of teaching me, what exactly he is teaching me I am not sure, probably that I am not Super Women. I can not do everything and make everyone happy. He is teaching me I need to slow down and enjoy what is in front of me. With Jordan working as much as he was I was starting to just move on with out him. Now I need him more than ever. I realize how much we truly are a team. He is a wonderful man and I am so lucky to have him be my partner. This Christmas Eve as I sit here in an empty house I realize what Christmas is all about. It doesn't matter that I won't get to do everything I wanted to do tonight, what matters is that MY family is healthy, happy and truly loved. We have a roof over our heads and we eat every day. We are about to have a beautiful child of our Heavenly Fathers join our family and that is more than I could ever ask for this Christmas! Please have a very Merry Christmas!