OCTOBER THOUGHTS

WARNING!!! I am in no way a writer so please understand I am blogging about this because I want it for my records. I need to put some perspective on so many random thoughts I have had tonight.

Back in July I was looking at a calendar with my sister Julie. I had My sister-in-law on my cell phone and Julie had my sister Jessica on her cell phone and we were planning baby showers and bridal showers and wedding dates along with when baby's were tentatively to be born. I knew in July the months of September and October were going to be full. I was excited for the joy that I knew those two months would bring. September was wonderful. We had two bridal showers, a baby shower and Jordan and I celebrated 5 years of marriage. Then came October. There are so many things that made me truly reflect in my life. First came a beautiful wedding for time and all eternity. It was so wonderful to watch my sister-in-law start a new adventure in her life. To watch her take the first step in her eternal life and family. She choose a man that honors his priesthood, that has parents that led and guided their children in the church, she chose a man that any parent would be happy to see their daughter with.

Next came another baby shower. We were able to share joy with family and friends as we rejoiced at Julie's first child about to enter into this world.

Then came my parents 29th wedding anniversary. 29 years of being someones companion. My parent's have true love. I have watched as they have had struggles. Whether it be financially, with one of us children, our extended family, or just plain disagreements they are united. The pure love they have for one another is truly beautiful. Words can not express the example they have been to me and my marriage.

Then came tragedy. A family that we have known for many years lost their son whom was 24 years old. He was so young and so full of life and lived each day to the fullest. This young man was the definition of love one another. He loved to serve anyone he could and although he was only on earth a short 24 years he was loved by anyone that knew him. When Jordan told me what had happened to him we sat together and shared so many thoughts. One thing that kept coming to my mind is there must be so much work to be done in heaven. This is the second young man that we know personally that has been taken from his earthly family to go serve the lord in heaven. Such good strong healthy young men. I tried really hard to not to ask the lord why? Why the young why two men that never had the joy of getting married or having children? But I am not perfect and so as Jordan and I talked I found myself starting to get selfish and ask why? That night as I laid in bed I could not get my mind off the service that these two friends were doing. I know why, the lord took two of my friends because these two boys knew how to love and to make people feel special. They were chosen to make people in heaven feel that love and friendship that we here were able to feel on earth.

For the last 2 years August to the end of October has become a time for me to really sit down and thank Heavenly Father for my family. A very dear friend of mine lost her little boy at the end of October. As I sat at lunch with her this week trying to be a good friend and listen when I needed to listen and talk when I thought she needed to hear something from my heart I couldn't help but notice how at peace she is. There is not a dought in her mind she will see her son again. I know she has times when her heart aches to hold her son in her arms, what mother wouldn't, but I also know she is blessed with the knowledge of an eternal family. I am so thankful for the gospel. I am thankful for my husband and the life he is now choosing to live. He is a worthy priesthood holder, he enjoys going to the temple with me and I can not express the love that has grown between the two of us in these last 7 months.

Again I am so for the craziness of this blog!